It Didn't Work Long Enough Guys The Thoughts Are Back Give Me A Break

Endos who claim to want things to be different for them but freak out when they encounter a system with system experiences 💀

Our meds definitely aren't enough,,,

Calling antipsychotics the silly meds cause i don't want to think about it too deeply

Your fav boi is spiraling send help

Leaving this here for... no reason

Why do feelings hurt so bad

Grieving the man i could've easily been if only my brain would've developped normally<<<<<

Pretending to be tougher than you really are won't shield you from the lack of love and affection you experience pretending you don't need it btw.

I seriously need endos to fuck the hell off, what i go through daily isn't fun quirky little game you can decide to play, it is a fucking trauma response and i actually have to waste tons of my energy not to cause any more unreversible damage to the other alters. Having other people in your head isn't fucking funny, they're not just "friends you can have inside jokes with". It's tiring. It's debilitating. It's not knowing what will happen when you're not in front. Is having the others getting potentially exposed to danger and being unable to do anything to protect yourself and/or the body. It's others hating you for doing exactly what you were formed to do. The shame, the guilt, the self hate you constantly have to carry around that came after years and years of terrible trauma. It can sometimes be fun but the main point is it's a fucking disorder. I can't stand you guys fucking de-medicalising it so that you can enjoy a fake ass romanticised version of it. I hope my traumas hit you all at once. I hope you split a pre self-consciousness me. I wish all the worst to y'all

The crisis has passed