@cravked // trilla suduri
a life of solitude was something that trilla had gotten used to with the last two years, alone on the outer rim, staying as far away from society and individuals as she could. there had still been some necessary trips to markets for supplies that she needed; it had been a sharp learning curve to life as an imperial where all of her basic needs were met, just as they had been in the jedi order. when she hadn’t isolated herself, it had not been a problem. her skillset left her particularly capable of making money when she needed it, capable of mercenarial jobs that… the average person just could not accomplish on their own. she’d been among the best as a padawan, and learned so much more when training as an inquisitor. her arrogance had never failed her: she was capable of anything she set her mind to.
still, after all of that time, isolation had remained to be somewhat easier. maybe it was because of how sour things had gone with cal, or the fact that the others that she had run into had left her feeling less than about herself. quiet spaces away from people was what she needed, but she was still trying to follow the call of the force, to allow herself to be more than the darkness that had eaten her up for so long. much of it had faded. trilla found herself bathed in light more than dark these days, paranoia being the main thing to set her back. she ached for isolation, but the force continued to guide her in another direction, to tell her no. stumbling upon this stranger was just one of many instances that seemed to serve as proof for the idea.
trilla’s gaze fell upon them in the distance, debating with herself for a few minutes before she approached. she still maintained a modest distance when she spoke to her. “i can’t imagine that you’re accomplishing much out here.” her voice was cool and neutral as she spoke, chin held high even as the other’s seated position forced her gaze down to look upon them.
Sabine noticed a figure slowly approaching her from the distance, seemingly making right for the Mandalorian and their broken transport. They sat uneasily astride the speeder, working nimbly at all of the complexities of the machine before them. She made sure to note where their blasters were at the moment (just in case trouble arose). She looked up as, after a few minutes, the stranger stopped some distance away. They made a short comment about the bike, and without turning away from the interloper’s gaze, Sabine stifled a laugh, short and bark-like.
“Y’know, it would go a lot faster if I didn’t have someone griping about my work to distract me.”
Sabine realized that their words may have been harsh, but it was a lonely galaxy, and they knew not to trust everyone that came up to them with a blaster on their hip and a half-cocked expression of smugness on their face. Still, this approaching stranger seemed...different, somehow. They couldn’t place how, only that they seemed just as wearisome a traveler as herself. This person didn’t seem to want to bring harm or tension, to either of them. In fact, they seemed just as uncertain as the Mandalorian felt. Maybe that’s why, instead of offering a belittling quip or turning them away, she extended a handheld soldering tool to the newcomer.
“But, I will take your help, if that’s what you’re offering.” They paused, and flashed a small smile. “But only if I knew who was so generously concerned with the state of this busted piece of scrap metal.”
@cptfulcrum // Alexsandr Kallus
It was times like this where Kallus thought about how young Sabine and Ezra had been when the war had started. They were not much older than children, yet to the enemy they had been heinous rebels. No remorse for even an orphan like Ezra, who had learned to survive. He had chased them like dogs. As they spoke to him he sighed. He knew all about that. The Empire had instilled so many beliefs in him and it had taken two times as much work for him to realize that the brainwashing was just that. He was a cog in the machine, no one special. There was so much he could actually do. It was liberating when he had finally started asking questions, gaining an awareness. The cloud had been lifted. It sounded similar for his Mandalorian friend. “ You are right of course….. Not everyone has the same idea of peace. “ his peace had been sitting on his porch with Zeb, actually able to take a breath of fresh air. A home that was his. What was his peace now?
It was easy for him to notice how Sabine was able to turn things back to him and how poorly he was doing. But he didn’t want to think about that now, Zeb back on Lira San, abandoned by Kallus to go on some self serving mission to capture Thrawn, only stopping because he was worried about his friends. His jaw clenched and he looked away again. He couldn’t explain this, not to anyone. “ Zeb’s been fighting a long time. Longer than many of us. I don’t….. I can’t pull him back in. He deserves peace more than anyone I know. “ his tone is guarded now and when he looks back, his eyes are colder. No one would agree with him more than the Ghost Crew, but he needed to make his intentions clear. Kallus knew that Zeb could and would make his own choice if need be, but he didn’t want it to come to that point.
He shouldn’t be so tense with Sabine. The Ghost Crew had changed his life, gave him something to actually make it worth while. What would he be without them? Still, Garazeb made him question everything to begin with, called him friend when he deserved anything but. He would protect the Lasat with all he had. “ A drink sounds nice. “ he agreed, eyeing them. “ I don’t mean to be…. Harsh. I just don’t want to pull him back into this. Not unless he really wants to. I just want him to be happy, Sabine. You must understand that. “ He pulled his jacket closer to him, “ Do you have a cantina in mind? “
Tension permeated the air as her friend tightened his jaw. Sabine noticed the turning in his eyes, the shift from comfort to pain. They realized in that instant that their advice may have been too critical, could have come off as blaming this man for caring too much. That’s the last thing she wanted to convey. She knew how much Kallus meant to Zeb. How much they both meant to each other.
“Kallus, I think I...might not have explained myself well.” They took a breath, chose their words with more caution this time, careful not to seem judgmental. “I’m not blaming you, my friend,” they said with hesitancy as they reached down to wipe a smudge of dirt off the pigment of her armor. It needed a repainting soon, they noted.
“I understand how much you care for Zeb. For-- Well, for all of us.” They held his gaze, hoping to show him how much she cared too. “I just worry, is all. Well, I. And, I know-- I know we’ve been through...similar experiences.” They gritted their teeth through a smile and nodded. “I really don’t blame you one bit, Kallus. I just want you to be careful. For Zeb.” For all of us. They wiped the corner of their eye quickly, ignoring the moisture that had formed there. They’d both been through so much. This war had cost them both so much.
“C’mon, the Twisted Mynock Cantina is just a couple of klicks from here. Besides, I’ve gotta return this speeder bike to some old smuggler by sundown.”
As the two walked to where their bikes were parked, Sabine reached up, slowly, and placed their hand on Kallus’s shoulder. They had more in common than either of them cared to admit.
“I could really use that drink right about now.”
chaotickylia // Kylia Horne
Laughter fills the air around them. Crackling to life and adding electricity to the air and she finds the colors to be so vibrant. Colors? Since when was she able to see colors and the electricity in the air? She draws a breath, taking the other’s hand, getting up to her feet with a small laugh that leaves her once more. The colors swim around her, wrapping her up and filling her like a bubble ready to burst. She’s curious of this feeling. The way the air tastes as it moves with them. “Let’s do it!” Kylia laughs again, keeping their hands together as fear settles in the back of her mind of being separated from her newly found friend. She wants to stay with her. Doesn’t want to be alone. That fear wraps around her more like a monster in the dark, lurking in the shadows. “I’m Kylia!” She echoes the greeting as she follows behind them, her head spinning with the crows of people they’re passing. “Who are we looking for again?”
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They ran, unsure of the path before her, but confident that it was the right way. The air was practically teeming with excitement, with life, and she wondered how anyone could be sad in a place as magical as this. Their newfound friend trailed her paces, and the Mandalorian was grateful for the company!
“Kylia! That name is so pretty. A pretty name for my pretty friend!”
Another round of laughter boiled up from their toes, passed through chest and neck and mouth. It was uncontrollable, the laughter, but she didn’t mind! How could they, when they were surrounded by all these new friends? There was a question hanging in the air, but Sabine couldn’t focus on the answer. Of course she drew a blank; there was a race to finish! Maybe if they went a little faster, they could reach the clouds--
The two found themselves at last at a near-empty balcony, lit only by the patchwork of constellations above. Sabine doubled over, too tired to laugh. This was exhilarating! Was this freedom?
“Ha! Look at the stars, Kylia. They’re dancing.”
generally-scheming // Armitage Hux
Hux peered down his nose at his glass, following the proper steps of savoring a new wine as he considered her comment about destruction. They must know about Starkiller, then. Good. Let her spill more and more of her intel in the guise of gloating. The comment about Rens wrinkled his nose, a gesture he hid behind sniffing his wine. And if the absurd pretense of a date meant they were suggesting anything other than professional history, Hux studiously ignored the implication. “The Knights of Ren are an entire group which I’ve had the misfortune of associating with. You’ll need to be more specific.” And in doing so, show exactly which cards were in their hand.
Her flirtatious behavior set him on edge. (And that was exactly the point, wasn’t it?) He had no doubt the individual across the table would sooner kill him than kiss him, and that, at least, was mutual. Every suggestive whisper or raised eyebrow was met with a narrow-eyed glare or a tightening of his well-practiced emotionless mask. But the mention of his father Brendol cracked the facade, a flash of raw fury lighting up his eyes. Hux smothered the fire and considered his options.
“To disappointing our parents,” he answered instead, raising his glass to meet theirs. Weighing his words carefully — he had selected this bistro for its acceptance of an Imperially-aligned clientele — he met her gaze with singular intensity. “Such a decorated figure in his field, my father. I can only imagine how pleased the New Republic would be if anything were to happen to him.”
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There it was, the flash of emotion behind a facade of indifference. For just a second, this man let go of the carefully crafted mask. Then he quickened back to the haven of professionalism and dug at them, asking her to share what they knew of the Rens. Sabine understood the game. And she knew that he did, too. Perhaps better than anyone they’d had the pleasure of dining with of late. Information could be traded and turned like pawns in a game of chess. And it simply wouldn’t do to lay their playbook out for him to read at his lesiure.
“No, I don’t think I will. You seem like a man who just loves a mystery, Armitage. Besides, a girl’s gotta have their secrets.”
Instead, they zeroed in on his discomfort (anger? hatred, perhaps?) with her casual aside about Brendol. So, they’d guessed right. His name was like a spear, offering a chink in the armor of apathy. She took the gateway with greed, digging a foothold in the injury.
“Oya.” They took a sip of the wine. It would have been pleasant if it didn’t carry so much baggage. But, there wasn’t time for that. The game was in session, and it was Sabine’s turn to move. “I won’t disagree with you on that front. He is quite distinguished and respected, isn’t he? I can only imagine how hard it was for you to grow up in the shadow of such a dignified man. But we’re not here to talk about him, Hux.” They made sure to address him this time by the name shared with his father before echoing his words back at him, “If anything were to happen to him...how would you feel?”
for @beskarbuir and @finitefm // din djarin and tarre vizsla
── MANDALORE, YOUR SCENERY IS LIKE FAMINE. mandalore, the most stagnated, ravaged part of it, is too lucid for him. the landscape straddles between home and desolation, thriving in that liminal space; that is to say, it welcomes him without communion. but that is alright, for his learnings were true. this is a cursed planet, far past death and onto lying in wait. feverish and weak. imperials looming over and gorging on the fruit of their lands, gloating as its acidic juice drips into the corpse’s eyes. mandalore bares it’s clenched teeth and hungers, too. for ichor, for people, for love.
din will not be the one to satiate it. the love he offers is for his people beyond this soured heart, reared in their ways in places far from here. they are a nomadic people steeped in an idea. they are more than mandalore alone. still, he stood close to his companion in these past days, keeping an eye on their surroundings but mostly on them. it almost seemed like she would choke on the prospect of coming here, of walking into the maw of their once home. since their arrival, her grief was mute; hemorrhage kept internal. he hopes they know that if they dotter, he will bear their weight.
though there, in the distance, rises a haunting: arriving in beskar adorned in gilded fractures, as if shattered and rebuilt. his steps nearly stop there, hand so willing to pull sabine back for her safety. to din, they are an unknown beauty and terror looming forth ─ and though the feeling is transient, he dallies the tiniest bit slower than sabine when she perseveres in the face of a phantom. then, she drops to her knee as if the very sight of them is sacrosanct, bowing their head in reverence. ‘ tarre vizsla ’ , they had said, and all besides the clan name and shriek hawk garners no recognition.
his next move is less calculated. there is a bow of his head, hand to the heart while the other still grips his spear like a walking stick. a commingled greeting less pronounced as sabine’s, but respectful to a title that eludes him. ❝ su cuy’gar. ❞ a fraction of an accent lilts his words, obvious in comparison between him and them, but there is no shame in it. he lifts his head and glances to his companion, then back, ❝ as had we. ❞ concern edges his voice, ❝ how long have you been here ? ❞ this is a dead land. there will be no survival here.
the reactions tarre has faced from their people have been many, in this time. they cannot say that the awe is their least favorite, for they have felt the brunt outraged violence at assumed deception. the PAIN that lay beneath those interactions bests the creeping discomfort of respect for a mythos larger than their life. they were mand’alor in their time, after all – they know the INTENSITY of mandalorian devotion. but they have only made martyrs. to BE one ? it is something entirely different.
when she kneels, they are surprised by the instinct to kneel as well, to find the level of her eyes beneath her colorful helmet and assure her that deference is largely unnecessary. but this is not a force call, only human LONGING, and they have spent years attempting to calm their gut punches of emotion. they mirror her companion instead, a hand raised to their heart. these two are sharply different in more than their armor. their knowledge of HISTORY, they can assume, yet the importance lies in the force. she is fireworks. he is something more unobtrusive. they find both intriguing on a level that may speak only to their own desire for new connection with their people.
there are more pressing matters than any slowly sharpening edge of desperation, however. their voice is smooth as mandalore’s hot winds as they reply, ❛ i am them. please, RISE – i am no mand’alor in this time. ❜ they would insist that ALL mandalorians are clan enough to do away with such formalities, if they had not begun to grasp that these descendants of theirs are not nearly so united. ❛ i am glad to find others. what is left of history is something worth revisiting, i believe. ❜
the bittersweetness of it all is beginning to burn. they tuck the feeling underneath their tongue and let it rest there, tangled up in the core of them. ❛ only briefly. there is better accommodation not too far from here. i wanted to see what this became. ❜ their words come freely, yet remain careful with that bittersweet, that knot of feeling. their head tilts slightly as they look back to the ruins. ❛ this is a place of BLOOD. it is good that it is no home. ❜ it had been theirs, once, and they suppose that that is the tragedy of it. this loss will not leave them.
So, it was them, Mand’alor be’ruyot. How or why the leader had returned during their peoples’ most desolate hour was far beyond her understanding. Despite years spent in the company of Jedi, this was perhaps the most impossible thing she’d ever witnessed. Tongue heavy, Sabine found that they had no words-- no amount of training could have ever prepared her for this. Still, at their ancestor’s command, she rose, glancing over at their brother-in-arms.
The younger Mandalorian knew that their companion was not as versed in the history of their people-- which was not something she faulted them for. It just was, a product of circumstance. They examined him-- a shared language of silence only the two knew, unreliant on the visages hidden beneath beskar. This was the nature of their friendship: an understanding that silence had its own place in the conversations they held. So much was shared with so little sound. Despite the unease and confusion that now plagued them both, Sabine understood.
Attention turned, shifting back to the words spoken by one who held so many stories from an age lifetimes before her own. Guilt seized their breath once again. This place was no home, not for anyone. Nor had it been for years, and there were few more to blame than she. Sabine felt their voice waver and crack in response to the bitterness of the haastal.
“No. It is not.” So many skeletons haunted this wasteland once called prosperous, once called beloved. “It belongs now only to the mercy of the Ka’ra above.”
Noticing how uncomfortable the formalities had made their ancestor, Sabine extended an unsteady arm, anticipation of the traditional salute for Mando’ade.
“I am Sabine of Clan Wren and House Vizsla.” There was a moment of pause, consideration. Her companion could share their name if he wanted. It was optional, as most words between the two were. “It is an honor to share your name. Gedet’ye, what may I call you if not ner Mand’alor?”
They couldn’t help but hope her friend wasn’t too lost right now. She gave them a glance as if to reassure him that she’d explain later.
l closed starter l @inspiringgreatness
Sabine’s fingers trembled with the ship’s communication system, struggling to find the right frequency for their old friend. The last thing she wanted to do was bother such an important and busy figure with something as trivial as this, but they didn’t know who else to turn to. Finally, the hum of static softened into a dull purr, and she sat down with a sigh. The light on the holo camera blinked blue to let them know it had begun recording.
“H-hey. Hey, Ahsoka. It’s Sabine.”
Idiot. As if she couldn’t already tell.
“Look, I really don’t want to bother you, and you don’t have to answer this message. But, I--” they sighed, hugging her knees to their chest.
“I just didn’t really know who else to talk to, I guess? I mean, I just don’t feel ready to talk to Hera or Kanan, or...well, anyone, about it.”
(Or about anything, really.)
“ Look, I’ve just been thinking about Ezra a lot lately, and, I don’t know, I thought maybe you had too, and, maybe we could talk about it together? O-or not. That’s okay, too.”
Sabine paused, breath catching in her throat and stomach swelling with regret. Ahsoka didn’t need to be concerned with this. She was a Jedi once, and she had probably dealt with scenarios worse than this in the Clone Wars. What was Sabine even doing?
“On second thought, I’m sorry. I-I don’t mean to. To, uh. To take up your time. you’re probably really busy. I really hope you’re doing well. Stay safe.”
Sabine hastily reached forward and switched the channel off then stifled the racking sob clawing its way up her throat.
cravked // Trilla Suduri
there was the slightest urge to ask why that was, if it had to do with the armor that the other wore or something that wore deeper. those pieces of empathy that had been such a marked part of her personality when she had been a child were rising up inside of her, despite how they had tried to bury them. they were out of practice with it, she supposed, the entire reason that they had even given the stranger a bit of help when there had been no real motivation or advantage to doing so, other than some sense of goodness driving them.
“some people are just like that.” it’s an offer somewhere between, space for the other to talk about it if they so wished to, but not forcing it or asking quite so directly. that was just as much for her own sake as it was for theirs, she thought, but it didn’t matter. after today, what were the chances that they really ran into each other again? it was a large galaxy.
then again, if kestis was any evidence…
trilla shrugged, “it was no problem.” that much was true at least. they took the menu with little real interest. “so where will you go from here?”
Questions wedged themselves between the two, a hesitancy held by both parties. In the checkered silence, Sabine wondered if the other was ever the kind to stand out-- surely the lightsaber at their hip did.
“I’m not sure yet. I don’t have the intel I was looking for, but I knew it was a long shot when I landed, so I’m not too surprised.”
She picked at some stain on the table, a topography of other dining patrons, other conversations struck and bargains paid. Dim lights shone down around the bar, though most of the room was draped in comfortable shadow. Muffled music was spitting from broken speakers a few feet away. There, Sabine sat, painfully aware of everything, every sense filled to the brim.
“Might visit an old friend or two.” Somewhere she wouldn’t stand out. Somewhere Sabine knew they belonged. “And you? Are you staying here, or are you heading off-world?” There was a quick pause, a desire to run. Overruled. The Mandalorian took a sharp breath, reminding themself that there was no war to be found here. No enemy to run from. Yet.
“My ship has room for another passenger, if ever you want to let me repay the debt.”
She only half-expected Trilla to take up the offer, but it was the polite thing to do. Shit, without their help, Sabine might still be stranded a number of klicks away, walking the wrong direction. I wouldn’t be the first time, but every time, they wished it was the last.
galaxywon // Alexsandr Kallus
Sabine had been Imperial, even though their time had ended much before his own. They knew what it felt like to be forced to adhere to something that took away any case of individuality. But she didn’t know what it felt like to believe it with your whole being. He would have died for The Empire, almost had on multiple occasions. He thought his life was worth something with them, didn’t know true value until he had been challenged to question things. Being an Imperial had been his entire life. It was still his deepest shame. He could tell by the way they analyzed the images that they understood what it meant. “ I fear if I don’t do it soon, I never will. “ he admitted, turning away from them to try to hide some of the emotions passing through his face.
“ I can sit with you while you draw if you’d like. “ It was more for him than it was for Sabine, of course. He wasn’t sure he could sit around and wait for her to be done. “ I have some mission reports I could fill out. “ He knew without trying that he wouldn’t get a thing done while he was waiting for them, but he could pretend. “ Just….. Don’t tell Garazeb about this. Please. “
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“ I understand.” She replied, though they both knew she couldn’t fully comprehend all he was feeling. Still, they felt the weight that sat on his shoulders. They understood its significance. None of the Spectres blamed Kallus for what he’d done, but Sabine knew that hearing something and believing it were two different things. Gods, did they know that...
“Please, make yourself at home,” she nodded, motioning to the cluttered interior of the ship. Sure, the cabin was a bit of a mess, but they got the feeling her friend wouldn’t mind. Well...maybe he’d mind a little, but the Ghost crew had always been so lovably chaotic. At their’s friend’s next request, though, her smile weakened, and they nodded solemnly.
“Speaking of Zeb,” they asked, already opening the digital art application on her datapad, “can I ask how you two are? You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to,” they added with a rush, careful to give him the chance to say no if he wanted. “I just know that with the whole time skip shit, everything’s been so...different.” A pause, as she rested stylus on screen. “Have you talked to them since?”
cravked // Trilla Suduri
it did not surprise them when the other offered no response to her words, nor did it bother her. trilla did not have particularly strong feelings about the hapan either way, she would not have been here in the first place if it weren’t for cal, or what they needed for the younglings. she didn’t entirely hate the excuse to get to dress up a bit, either. it wasn’t often that they had one.
“it’s not an insult,” a wry smile paired with the words. it was hard for trilla to relate to the idea of wanting to stick out when she would have been happy to disappear into the crowd without recognition. “no, it’s not my type of function. i’m here with a…” they paused slightly. “a friend. we’re meeting someone else for some work.” no need to disclose anything of her association with the jedi.
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A pause passed through Trilla’s voice at the mention of a friend, and Sabine’s eyebrow gave the slightest raise. She elected to ignore the other’s hesitation, knowing that they’d share if they wanted to. If not, well, then it really wasn’t any of Sabine’s business.
“That makes more sense. After the disaster of the last event like this...I think it’s fair to be a little on edge.” They nodded and raised the drink to her lips, the soft carbonation offering her a short repose from conversation. Beskar gleamed before the two of them, and the reminder of mission tugged at her gut. “Suppose I’m here on business, too.”
cravked // trilla suduri
there was a natural spark of curiosity that arose as a result of their statement. asking would have been inviting in more conversation, given the other room to ask perhaps more personal questions about herself, which was truthfully what trilla was trying to avoid. there was no reason for her to have anything against them, even if relatively minor judgments naturally slipped in here and there. but at least thus far, they have proved capable of deterring anything unwanted.
“what kind of information are you looking for? i might be able to point you in the right direction.” that was very unlikely. trilla hadn’t been on the planet long and did not intend to stay on it for much longer, only knew enough to keep herself blending in and without drawing undue attention. still, the curiosity was there, and there was no reason for sabine to know otherwise. lying was something that there were too good at.
the offer was unexpected, although trilla had already given them a ride to an extent. a few minutes to town wasn’t exactly equivocal to somewhere off world, especially in terms of time spent together. “i have a ship of my own,” she answered with a simple shrug of her left shoulder. “that’s not really an offer you should go around making.” the words are harsh by themself, a beat passing before they added, “given your apparent lack of direction.”
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And here was the fork in the road, the other shoe dropped. Sabine bit the inside of their cheek, the question of whether or not to reveal true alliances a weight on her tongue. She wondered about the biases Trilla held about her-- of course, the armor and its heritage carried assumptions (and they weren’t always positive; more than one scar could attest to that). Sabine resolved that the truth may as well will out this one. If there was going to be a fight, the Mandalorian trusted their instinct. Knew her skills.
“I’ve been tracking the remains of old Imperial intelligence units-- hard to pin them down, but worth a great reward to the New Republic.” Okay, so it wasn’t the full truth. It wasn’t for bounty that she worked, but for something else. For redemption. No, it was loyalty to a shared vision created by the sacrifices they and so many others had made. For the Spectres. For Mandalore. But the admittance answered enough in its words alone.
Then, at the half-insult--
“Hey, you just caught me on an off day. I knew where I was going, I just got a shit bike rental. Happens to the best of us.” Again, the Mando suspected that the person sitting across from her didn’t seem like the type to ask for assistance, but hey, they’d been wrong before. And it never hurt to return politeness to strangers, especially if there was any chance she’d run into them in the galaxy again. “If that ever changes-- if you decide you want or need help-- I’d be grateful to fulfill the debt.”
Sabine awaited their reaction in its totality, watched the direction hands travelled and eyes wandered. The next move was Trilla’s to make. Sabine felt no need to reach for the blasters or hidden vibroblades yet, but that could easily change.
❛ can i come with you ? ❜ from din
Sabine enjoys this friend’s company as much she enjoys spending time with any of the Spectres (as much as she had enjoyed spending time with Tristan and Ezra). To hear him ask for her companionship with such gentility...The question brought a grin to their unmasked face.
“Of course. The more the merrier.”
Artist. Madalorian. Weapons Master. Rebel. "My friends make the impossible possible." // RP account for galacticshq
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