For my next obsession, I think it would be better if it was mutual.
Thanks for liking my art. This truly means a lot to me. So... yeah... thank youuu. ✨️
You're more than welcome :)
The pieces you make are so cool <3
Binge eating has and is destroying my life. It has been so many years I can't even remember when I had a normal idea of food.
I genuinely don't know how to stop. I have stopped doing low cal restriction, I have raised my calories a lot, but I still binge at the end of the day.
I can't live on like this, I just want to escape this body and mind.
I'm so sleepy, I feel like I'm sick. Moving my body is hard. But I still have to cut myself for eating before I go to sleep.
In the morning my coworker asked if everything is okay, because my face was sad. I didn't quite understand if between the lines she was also telling me I shouldn't look like that bcs how it would look to customers. But I tried to smile more.
And now my mom got angry at me out of no where bcs like she said, I always look like im dying, whatever happens I look like I'm dying. She also said that life wasn't so hard which I agree, my life isn't hard. She also ranted some more but yh.
I guess I'll have to train myself to smile all the time. Idk how to tho lol
My brain is my biggest enemy. I'm randomly sitting in school, not even hungry and then out of a sudden BOOM!! An extremely strong urge to skip the rest of the school day to go and buy junk and then just spend my day eating. I can just feel common sense flowing out of my mind, but I must resist lol
I've managed to get fever 3 times this hot af summer. How does one even do that
Saw a girl with the tiniest waist and a butch gf at work today. Idk if I even like girls like that, but have never wanted to be someone so bad in a while.
The things I would do for him to feel like that towards me.
I thought my life was meaningless and aimless, but all that changed with her. Now I'm alive with a purpose, obsessed with giving her everything I am and can be. I'm filled with determination, and every single minute of the day I can't wait to see her again. When I look in the mirror, nothing matters - only her.
My graduation is in a few days and I look so fucking fat in the dress. I want to stab myself in the stomach thru that ugly piece of trash. I also looked deeply miserable and sickly whilst trying it on today, which would at least look pretty if i was skinny, but since im not, it just looks disgusting. Now I'll have to work 3 days whilst starving. Whilst there's also 6 different stress sources chewing on me.
I'm so tired. I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up