What is the line between being delulu and being actually insane. I write you letters and poetry you’ll never see. I’d set myself on fire to keep you warm. I want you to dig your hands into my shoulder blades and grab my heart and pull me into your chest. Let me slowly bleed out over you.
i want to live out my anger, i want to be able to scream and smash, i want to defend myself like an adult. then why am i crying every time
I could stare at you forever. I wish you were mine.
Get out of my head! Get out!
I always type long messages for you and then leave them there. I’m worried I might accidentally hit send one day.
all I can do is stare at your name and hope that something will happen
bpd culture is needing everyone to love you constantly
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i hate myself
Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them
Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were
The shame makes me want to rip my skin off
i would literally give anything for them to be as obsessed with me as i am with them please for once in my life i'll do anything i just need this so bad
To avoid the sick feeling I get from talking to people about my feelings I am vomiting them out here, enjoy.
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