"It Was Books That Made Me Feel That Perhaps I Was Not Completely Alone. They Could Be Honest With Me,

Is there anyway to not cry when angry?

jesus christ, be polite to children and show them manners. fucking say excuse me when you walk past them, apologize to them when you cut them off, thank them when they’re courteous to you. they’re not little objects that don’t matter. you should be a fucking example and teach them how to treat people, instead of acting like they’re these invisible THINGS that don’t have feelings or don’t notice when they aren’t acknowledged. be polite to children the same way you’d be polite to someone of your own age group or older. you can respect a child.

I could write a thousand poems for you but surely, you’ll revise it and send it to her. :)

Shielding myself from everyone.

Every-fucking-one.

21.01.24 || New year, same old me with the pics from my study abroad two years ago. Where does the time go?

Term started late this year due to covid, but classes finally started last week. I’m taking three language courses and am in absolute heaven right now. I feel like I finally have the time to focus on the smallest details of Greek and Latin and can nerd out over grammar constructions with my professors. Maybe teaching a language is my true calling, since I’m at my happiest in a language class.

Also lerne ich Deutsch und lese Der Kleine Prinz. Wo sind die Deutschsprache studyblrs?

I love getting unaccompanied minors (kids flying alone) who so clearly just. Don't want to be here lol. Sometimes I get to know a little of their story, like their parents are divorced, or a family member died and they're heading to the funeral, but usually they just don't want to talk about it and that's fine. But I always treat the flight like it's a challenge to make them smile. I offer them snacks and soda but that's never enough, that's whatever, they could get those from an airport vending machine. Chump change. So then I tell the worst jokes. Just the most embarrassing, kindergarten teacher, annoying dad jokes you can think of. And those always get a groan, or a "Seriously??" And that's my in! Now I can say "Why, what's your idea of a good joke? No, come on hotshot, make your best joke, let's see it." And they hem and they haw but of course they eventually tell me their very best joke because kids are little competitive comedy goldmines. And it's always super funny, so I laugh, and that's where they slip up. Because you know what you almost always do when your joke successfully makes someone laugh? You smile. And I'm like. Gotcha. Rookie move. Now you're going to end up having a good time in spite of yourself. I win.

“You will never find time for anything. If you want the time, you must make it.” - Charles Buxton

Is it possible to hate on someone so much? Or loathe even.

I loathe my brother. I'm scared of what he might do. I can't properly put it up to simpler word but he's stupid, immature, and no matter how you told him not to do this thing, he still does it.

He is so annoying to the point that I want him to be eradicated from my life. Either that or I am the one to be away.

Some might think, I will only feel this now, that it's only cat fights then later, I'd forgive him. Before, that's the case. I forgive him, he's my brother, of course.

But he's been like that ever since time immemorial. He has never changed.

They say, never result to physical violence, everything can be fixed through talking. But the thing is, he never even listen. How can we sort things out now?

Just yesterday, I'm explaining to him something because he seem not to understand it. But he didn't listened. He just said, "Blah, blah, blah."

Tell me, how can ones patience not reach its limit if encountered someone like that? I'm being serious and that all he'd say?

Before, I thought that it's maybe because he's still young. Maybe, one day, he'll mature. One day, he'll understand. Years had pass, yes, he is not the same anymore. He became worse.

What should you do to discipline someone without resorting to violence besides talking? Suggestions?

do you wish you were seeing somebody

a therapist