safe space ...
Virginia Woolf, from a diary entry featured in "A Writer's Diary," originally pub. in January 1953
not to make any callous remarks but i do think the ever-increasing bans on public religious (read: muslim) displayal (whether in banning mosques for not fitting the landscape or banning hijabs at school or banning burqas and niqabs in public or having police harass women wearing all-coverage outfits at the beach or making laws that state employees have no legal rights for prayer breaks) in european countries, many of which have large and growing right-wing parties, is one of the many outward signs that fascism is politely entering european politics again and europeans are just welcoming fascism with open arms
This is what I want my life to be...
I suppose I still have some hope left, it’s not east to push yourself and ignore what’s you’re feeling. It’s not easy to smile and say that everything is ok when in fact everything is falling apart.
Sometimes you just have to push those feelings down in a glass bottle that buried deep in your soul and forget about them
But let them out slowly
Because the glass bottle can crack or shatter or over flow with these feelings
And it can take a toll on you
☕️
you know, the more i think about it, the angrier i get about how mainstream media and even people in general treated marie kondo when the life changing magic of tidying up got big. it's just so unnecessary and sad to me and i think the vast majority of people would love what she has to say if they just actually looked into it instead of maliciously memeing her to death? i'm not talking about the cutesy does it spark joy stuff but all the things portraying her as some bizarre evil cleaning dictator.
i actually read her book when i was about twelve years old, in the most shocking and probably only example of me ever being ahead of a trend, and even at twelve i really loved everything she said. at that point in time i lived in fear of my mother's threats that she would come and throw everything away while i was school, and my small and very adhd mind simply could not grasp the concept of "have less stuff". have less of WHICH stuff? how? i'd never actually been taught how to clean my room besides being told "pick up stuff" and "be organized", and as she points out multiple times, cleaning is not an intuitive thing. it's a learned behavior and skill.
anyways. her entire philosophy centers on surrounding yourself with things that you love, and only things that you love (or things that you absolutely need). she explicitly says over and over again that it is not about throwing things away, it is not about minimalism, it is not about "what is the smallest amount possible that you can survive on". she literally has a whole section where she talks about how hard it can be to throw things away when you've lived in poverty all your life and you don't have absolute confidence that you can replace something that you really needed if it gets thrown out, even though you're not likely to ever really need it--you've just been conditioned to think that because that's literally how you survive, when you're poor. she talks about how that mindset can serve and how it can damage. she talks about how minimalism is sort of a rich people thing, cause they can afford to throw everything away.
this woman really came out here and said "i want you to be surrounded by things you love and i'm going to validate your fears and your difficulties in getting to that place" and people somehow got mad at her. i don't understand it
hi y’all, I kinda disappeared for a few days, a lot has been going in in my life at the moment. Good and bad and stressful things. life.
i got into art college (I still can’t believe that)
I have a shit ton of tests I can barely breath
(and I have a Japanese oral on the 7th and I can hardly introduce myself let alone talk about my future plans....(stress levels 📈📈📈📈)
ive been living with out internet for the past few days as well coz internet is a distractions and I NEED to do well (and I just can’t help wandering and chilling on the internet when I know I have to study biology...ew)
I feel like I aged... 30 years ??
I haven’t slept good in quite some time I can’t even remember what sleep feels like...
my eating habits are absolute shit
and i think that’s enough venting for today
I’ll be back soon (not sure if anyone will care but yeah)
when hayao miyazaki said that true love was two people inspiring each other to live…recognizing just how hard living is, putting one foot in front of the other every day, how easy it is to lose our passion for it…… that’s the real shit