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Ada Limón, “To Be Made Whole”, On Being with Krista Tippett

I’m not old.

I’m 19 years old.

But I feel old. I feel really old, like I’ve lived “life”.

Just not to it’s full potential

Maybe... I don’t know

But I feel old

I missed out on so much things that I’ve wanted to do

But life seemed to have stopped for me when I was 14

Life stopped and started hitting rewind every single day

Rewind

Rewind

Rewind

I’m so tired

Next October I’m going to be 20

Then 30

40

50

60

70?

How long will I life for?

Life’s so short

Fragile

Slips right through your fingers

Gone just like that

I

Will I age? Will I become old?

Because it almost feels like I’m already old. I have so much I want to do.

So much to look forward to

So much places to see, so much people to meet.

So much plans to carry out.

But it also feels like there’s nothing there for me. Nothing waiting for me.

Is it because I feel old...

Maybe.

Maybe not.

I don’t know.

I wish I could talk and talk and talk to someone and they’d look at me and tell me

Tell me why? How? When? What? Who?

Why why why why?

Tell me it’s ok...maybe

Because I don’t know.

-a

“…it will get better again”

it has gotten better before, it will get better again

If this isn’t my dream home then I don’t know what is...

A view of Monet’s house and own inspirational garden: Giverny, France.

@keuhkopussirotta / fleabag / jamie anderson / holly warburton / richard siken / mitski / aracelis girmay by @heavensghost / philip pullman

Guilty of this…srsly need to cop the feck on

Yes..yes please...ლ(ಥ Д ಥ )ლ

not to flirt or anything but what if we hold hands while we’re getting coffee and then you suggest we go to the library

the invisible life of addie larue