Just Press Play.

I rickrolled my panel last year. Ah, good times. (at WasabiCon)

Y’know, I had this weird plan to separate myself from everyone. I figured if I just left and didn’t look back, then I could just stay by myself and nobody would bother me.

The plan was super simple. Just stop going to school, don’t make unnecessary contact online, and tell everyone when you see them that your doing fine by yourself. Tell them you prefer being by yourself, and they’ll leave you alone.

It worked.

The plan worked perfectly and, for the most part, I’m alone again.

I’m alone again.

Nobody really cares about me or my life. about the things that I like or dislike. Sometimes they say they do but I don’t really believe them. I have no reason to. It’s not like they’ve given me one. They’re always lying about themselves anyways. Hiding things from me, only to say them when they think I’ve left the room. That’s fine. I get that. The need to vent about your feelings is understandable and I’m not a very nice person to begin with, so I get why people don;t like me.

I wish that they did though.

I don’t like being alone.

I say that I do, but that’s not really true.

I just don’t like being scared and that’s all I ever seem to feel when I’m around people. I’m scared that I’ll mess up somehow and they’ll hate me like so many others already do.

(they all left me)

I hate that.

I hate that part of me that everyone seems to despise.

(all of me they hate all of me and so do i because i should)

That part of me relishes in those terrible feelings, in being feared and looked at with disgusted eyes. That part of me thinks it’s hilarious how much these feelings affect the rest of me.

“It’s fine.” She says with her sickening smiles and empty eyes.

(terrifying monster makes me sick want to vomit)

“It’s not.” I mutter because I’m too tired to say it louder.

(so tired just want sleep stop it let it stop please)

It’s always been like this and that’s not fine but it also is.

(its not it never was)

Because I’m worthless and that’s just how it is has been and always will be.

(it hurts)

That’s fine.

(its not)

I’m not though.

(im not)

...

The plan worked.

(it hurts)

I’m alone again.

(i didnt want it)

I’m not as happy about that as I thought I’d be.

(i wasnt happy to begin with)

(we never were)

He loves his chair, a little too much... (at Florida State College At Jacksonville Centers)

I never really realized just how often he said that in the show.

Sorry if this is a dumb question but who is Rudy and why do they gotta draw something?

R u D y  Y o U  g O t T a  D r A w  S o M e T h I n G

Coming out

So I found out I liked girls in high school and, when I did, I told my parents.

 Their response was, “Oh, ok, that’s cool. Just don’t make any concrete decisions yet, alright? Cus’ you never know when you might want to give something new a try.”

Also, “Don’t be an angry lesbian, ok? Cus’ we know a few of those and they’re really annoying to deal with.”

Right. So keep an open mind and don’t be pissed off about life. I can deal with that.

Found a butterfly at Home Depot. (at The Home Depot)

A bear print and a close up buffalo.

Some Yellowstone shots from a while ago.

Vigo is why we can’t have nice things...

What are y’all talking about?

Can’t you see that this is literally EVERYBODY?

I would die for Natsume Takashi