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itâs okay to let someone go even if you love them
âtumblr is so embarrassing-â
I was on deviantart and fanfiction.net for the entire first decade of this century
embarrassing content is a normal part of being a teen on the internet
listen, this ainât new, my buddy, my pal, everyone is embarrassing always
Whatâs going to make you happy right now? Is it some cake? Is it a nap? Is it calling your mom? Is it going on a drive and blasting music? Is it taking a bath? Is it reading a book?
Check in with yourself because you deserve that happiness, whatever it is.
Growing up my parents taught me that if youâre too sick to [insert responsibility here] then youâre too sick to [insert something that makes you happy here].
It took me a really long time to unlearn this. When I would get sick or have a âbad dayâ I would deprive myself of anything that made me happy. Watching movies, eating something I enjoyed, going for a walk, playing video games or just browsing online looking at funny cat videos. I wouldnât let myself do these things because I was always told that if Iâm too sick to go to work, or do homework, or go to school then I must be too sick to play Mortal Kombat or watch Unsolved Mysteries lol.
Whenever I wouldnât feel good, which I later learned as an adult was due to sleep deprivation caused by my ADHD and depression (and of course the depression itself would cause me to feel like shit), my parents would tell me âif youâre not throwing up, then youâre not sick.â And when I would stay home from school (or even work in my later teen years) my parents would make sure that I didnât have any âfun.â No TV, no movies, no games, no going outside, no arts and crafts, no books, no nothing. Just lay in bed and feel miserable.
Iâm happy to say that I no longer do this to myself. Now when Iâm having a bad day or Iâm sick (cold, flu or whatever) I allow myself to do the things (within reason lol) that I actually love doing. If Iâm not too sick to step outside for a few minutes then Iâll go for a walk. Iâll watch my favorite movies and if itâs a bad day or a cold (something that doesnât hinder my appetite too much) Iâll eat my favorite foods. I donât guilt trip myself anymore for having a âsick day.â
Just because youâre sick (whether physically, emotionally or mentally) doesnât mean that you canât do things you enjoy. Youâre not any less sick because you watch TV. Youâre not any less sick because youâre playing video games.Â
Actually you SHOULD be doing these things when youâre not feeling good because they make you feel better. The better you feel, the faster your heal.Â
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Thereâs something inherently hilarious about taking one of those indie puzzle-platformers thatâs intended to be a contemplative exploration of personal identity or mental illness or what have you and speed-running it.
Not sure how this works. I'll figure things out as I go. But for now, I hope what I have isn't difficult to navigate.
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