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idek, some sort of vent.

god, i wonder what i look like in your mind. it surely won’t match up to me, right?

this body is not me. and i hate looking in the mirror and seeing that.

i don’t have a fucking cunt, of all things. i don’t have tits. i don’t have sinewy arms and soft hands.

the person in the mirror is not me.

will you still like me, even if i don’t match up to your expectations?

It would be really cool if I could stop randomly feeling insanely depressed out of nowhere

i’m so deeply curious about this anon…

small world, huh, captain? 'm sure you could connect the dots. use that pretty head of yers.

...looks like you've picked up after yourself these days. wonder if you're still as easy as you used to be.

– ✘

easy? what ever do you mean? “picked up after myself”? connect the dots?

oh, now i’m more curious then ever.

its hard not to when youre so amazing, and mean so much to me. like what if you find out which anya i am and realise you have no intrest in me because of it.. -⛓

you will never know, until you try.

i’m surprised you think i’m so amazing, honestly.

maybe that idea is right, only one way to find out/lh -⛓

using my own words against me, now, are we?

for someone who was so scared, your confidence sure did build up fast.

i am very much the kind of person to constantly have emojicombos dot com open in a tab it makes it so effortless to build themed things -⛓

oh, absolutely!

i have a note in my notes app full of copy-paste symbols.

Maybe I should be messaging you on this blog, but I dont think you would have talked about me here.. -⛓

what makes you think that, anon?

i have to say, the air of mystery is certainly odd. i do hope your confidence will grow soon.

please, don’t bother reading. it’s just another tw’d vent post. what’s the point.

god, i’m useless.

what kind of captain thinks like this? what kind of captain puts himself first? i’m pathetic.

i just want to be good for someone. i just want to be someone’s first choice, their favorite.

i don’t want to be a leftover. i don’t want to be left behind.

i don’t want to be alone again.

i can’t be alone again.

my thighs hurt so much. my head and fingers and toes are throbbing, probably from blood loss. i can’t keep doing this to myself.

i can’t keep running from my problems.

the want to reveal myself vs. the anxiety that you will be disappointed to find out who i am. fight/ref (i might be getting in my head about it again) -⛓

well, don’t go getting too deep in your head, now.

i won’t be disappointed, i promise.

Once upon a time I was told I wasnt worthy of love,, now I have even worse self esteem then I already did. I am terrified of rejection, and believe its all I will receive from anyone I show interest in.. So the possibility of you figuring out who I am is scary,, because Im convinced you will lose interest if you ever find out... -⛓

you will never know until you try.

i’m sorry you were told that. everyone is worthy of unending love.